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Merry-Go-Rounds, Onions and Choices - Oh My!

See, I did not get this for such along time, that now I got it (I am s l o w) I don't understand why others don't get it.

Well, hello and welcome to my very first official blog here on the Midtown Patch. As I write this, forgive me because I have not even titled this one yet, I was kind of hoping to leave room for divine intervention....we will see. If you are wondering who I am, I invite you to read my biography.

So hold on, here we go.

Recently people have been talking about another celebrity who has died. The buzz is that they either was doing drugs, and they stopped, but they were maybe still drinking. What I have learned in my "own" personal experience (can't write or talk about yours) is when I stopped one addiction, I found another one! No ifs, ands or buts, another one or I had already started and thought I could play with it. 

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One thing I have found out was when looking at my stuff it is like peeling an onion. Layer after layer sometimes will bring new discovery's, new awareness (after denial) a new journey and more tears. 

As I would start looking at all this stuff, the hurts (the ones that belong to me), the habits, the hang-ups, the other hurts (the ones I caused others and the ones from others hurting me)and more tears, it became very apparent to me -- all the drinking, the drugs, the other junk -- had a numbing effect!

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So, in this process if I did not stop it all, which meant "everything", it wasn't if I would start again, it was when. I had to leave my old playmates behind...friends or family, the addictions....all of it behind! 

I had to go find out why? You can set there (and I did) and blame it on your parents.....they drank, so that is why I do. Or they were abusive, that is why I am. Or they did drugs, and that is why I do. Or Mom or Dad had affairs, and that is why I do. The secular world wants us to blame our junk on other folks, when in fact......."I had to choose"....I had to take that first drink, or the dope, or the porn, it was a choice.......it was up to us! It was decision we had to make. 

Did having to live with the folks we lived with have affect on us? YES, but we had to act on it first! 

When we were created, it says in Genesis 1: 26-27

"26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”  27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them."

We were made in HIS image! We were wired not to get addicted to stuff, or do the things we do, because we were wired in HIS imagine, we were designed by HIM...

Somewhere down the road I got re-wired. I started running jumper wires, by passing the way I was wired by HIM. Look at Psalm 139:16 

"Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."  HE put me in HIS book.......Wow! HE put "Us" in HIS Book!

So, here we are, all running around looking for answers, in bottles, in white power, in rocks, and money, in material things, in other people, in sex......and we were not wired for that. 

This is my blog, and I am writing about what worked for me, and I believe in my heart of hearts that it will work for others. 

Kay (my wife) and I have seen it work for others, but you have got to be WILLING to allow the re -wiring to start. So where do we go? 

The master electrician Jesus Christ has always been the answer for me. You might be in a group that says to call HIM your high power and HE is; but a person's high power might be a tree.. Jesus Christ is the Healer!

I had to go back to the Master and allow HIM to start re-wiring me. You can go back to the Master and allow HIM to start re-wiring you. I fought this, tried to out run HIM (HE is a track star). It was when I became WILLING to allow HIM to start. HE is still re-wiring me today. 

I found as peeling my layers back -- inability to forgive, anger, all kinds of hurts from others -- powerlessness, that I had chose to numb myself. 

Then I had to start dealing with all the hurt I had caused others. There was a lot once I got honest.

Look, overdoses deaths are up 120 percent.

Addictions are up over 400 percent.

Divorces are up 20 percent, just in Christian homes 

This country can blame it on anything we want too, we can blame it on each other, or who is in office, the leaders in our state. But, the bottom line is that we somewhere made a decision. We either chose to get involved or not too. We chose to stand for nothing and fall for everything. But, we chose. 

You might say I can't make a decision to change things, you just choose not too! 

Remember the merry-go-rounds when we were going up? Being in the center of that thing, while we took turns spinning it with our friends? When we got off of it, the spinning and sick feeling? Some of us are stuck there now. See it's safe there in the center, we know what to expect while we are there. It might hurt, but we have been there so long that we are use to that, that has in fact become our new "normal".

In the Book of John; Jesus asked the guys beside the well (he had been there 38 years)if he want to get well/better........HE is asking you today. 

See, I did not get this for such along time, that now I got it (I am s l o w) I don't understand why others don't get it. 

You might not like or agree with what I write here on my blog, but know this, "word on the street" (I like that)... I will be honest and write this from my heart of hearts, and I believe in what Jesus is doing.

In HIS steps, I walked one and HE walked 999,999+.

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